Tuesday, January 29, 2008

a day in space

think about lying there when you're a hundred
a hundred and ten or whatever
looking back on your life and thinking:
well, what did I actually do?
what did I actually achieve?
"oh, I saw the pyramids"
big deal!
you can apparently see those from space anyway

It's been awhile since I've posted. It's been even longer since I've posted anything other than pictures and song lyrics so I thought I would write a bit for a change. Actually, I have a side-project in the works and was waiting to unveil it but it might not ever be ready so here I am, just as I am.

It's another New Year.

During the latter end of 2007 I read You Shall Know Our Velocity! by Dave Eggers while listening to a lot of Ballboy. The book was just alright and some might say the same about Ballboy, though I can't seem to get enough of them. However, I don't recommend the combination. I've been thinking of the feeling that they left me with. At first it made me want to go somewhere, everywhere, really quickly. So I did. I got on a plane and I went to a lot of places. Then I came home tired, broke and emptier than before I had left. Now I look around at my life and think: So what? You can see it all from space anyway.

Your life has been lived a hundred times. A thousand times. It's not all that great, really. Don't take it so seriously. Don't handle it so delicately.

I began to feel simultaneously bored and boring, which is another deadly combination. It's not nice thinking your life, and the lives of those around you, aren't that great.

It's another New Year. I've made some resolutions, resolutions to be greater. It's not going so well, but it's only January.

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